Well Done!

I'll lick my wound,just like what you ask.

- Keren -This is not wound actually,Haha... Its a sign of being heroin protecting cousin from the Sardine Fish Crowed. But,I like my bruises. =) *proud. lol.

Have Fun! Real fun!

For the sake,so long I didn't smile or laugh from bottom of my heart.

I love my cousins. =)

I'll definately Come back again! Stay tune. Hehe...

Love

Leaving Singapore

I miss the place ,definitely.
Very very much.
Hanging out with cousins ,nephew and relatives ,really a happy moment.
Can't believe that 7 day just pass so fast.
I adapt to this place so fast and so well known.
Came to these place many many time already , but still it won't make me feel bored at all.
Spend bout 300 dollars. Shopping , eat and play.
At least,I went to the body world. See something real and build up my knowledge.Very much enjoy. =)
Of course , escape here, a little help ,at least I won't think of sad thing all the time.
I must get prepare for the greater coming challenge...
Chocolate!! I miss you,and I'll be back tomorrow! So you won't wait for me at the door anymore... So sad to hear you actually done such a sweet thing for me... *sob sob.

Christmas at Singapore!

My favourite cousin,Noelle Lee, Single and available. Interested? Call me. =)

Celebrate Christmas at Singapore Orchard road, Its been some time never been there for Christmas but somehow, its AWESOME!! =) If Alvina is here,she must be screaming like hell cause it is really SQUEEZING like a sardin fish. I never move,never even have chance to breath , people push me and so how i walk step by step and so how I like a man protecting my little cousin. haha! I feel like Man,at least for that 30 minute time , acting to be hero , Protecting and saving her from the crowded. Terrible crowded. Sigh.

I wish I could stay longer, So my aunt will feed me like a pig till I can't even breath properly. So that my cousin can accompany when I need a rest and walk. So that I can play with my nephew. Most important is, I love staying at Singapore. Really. =)

8 day for relaxing...

Oh yeah. I'm running away to find my peacefully day.
For so many things that happened ,
So much mentally issue involve,
I think I'm doing the right choice , get away these place for a holiday.
To get rid of what ever which distracted me.
I hate all these.
Depression is not that hard to get rid, It depends on what you think.
Walk out the door, and there is still rainbow on the sky. Then ,you'll smile for a new start.
There is so much that I can tell. Singapore is just like my 2nd home.
It give me hope , it give me relief and happiness for a moment.
Wish I could get a job in future , so I can enjoy the stress and the systematic life style .
oh Yap! Enjoy your holiday here too! Merry Christmas to everyone ! =)

Oh yeah, i've drink.
Sleep at 5 plus am and woke up at 7 am.
Cool huh? Less than 2 hour sleep. I really have no idea what is my brain functioning.
People is using the time wisely and study at home.
What I've done?
When out for the whole day, I know. Left a day more for exam!
What a big deal and so shit if I fail.
I waste my 3 year effort and another 1/2 year time?
Hell No!! No !! I'm not going to let this to happen. No!
So what I am still doing Now?
Better study a bit, at least you feel better..haha!!
Oh yeah... AVATAR is damn Nice wei!! I love the colours! =D
I had a wonderful Sunday... =)

If I could

If I could be drunk ,

Please let me be drunk ,

so I can crazy and ridiculous a little while.

At least the moment a while,I will not sad about what I'm depress to.

Everything is going to end soon,like I say.

Yeah,I can leave this place and start all over again.

I can do it!

Faster walk out the door!

Hell No!

Its already 315 am in the morning...

I'm so jealous to whoever who's sleeping now with saliva flows out or with the snoring sound...

Why am I still awake?

For the god sake , I'm preparing my Resume and I need to send it by later. WTH.

Later have to wake up by 7am to send my bro to work at the curve at the same time I have class!!

Oh god,last revision ever! I didn't even have time to touch my studies after I came back for group studies at classmate's house and now,look...what I'm doing?

Still have time to Blog. Haha!

I don't know who I can call in this timing,only can express at my small little Internet space.

I'm tired! So tired!!

Already alopecia, then insomnia , then no appetite , then tiring , the haven't finish yet. WTH!!!

I can't imagine how I'll look like in coming morning... Pale and ugly face!

What ever...who care now?

Gotta finish now,or else.. what time can I only sleep?

Mess up

Crazy break since wed, another 15 minute to 12 midnight, Recall my last night...

Sleep at 3something and woke up 7am ,not a good night sleep. Insomnia still and lost appetite...

Then give a call to my friend to discuss about some stupid issue who really break my brain and stab my heart, I'm confuse and I can't see what will be going to my future.

Long story and I'm not in the mood of story too. =(

Went to Sing K to relax and enjoy singing my favourite song ,majority mandarin. Haha! So pai seh to my other friends.There is Jay's song that I really love,especially those Emo a little one.

Then the man come and pick up for movie at pyramid. The Princess and the katak is Nice.. I love the humour and the songs too. The man told that I become smaller size,yeah I know shouldn't be that way.I will try hard to walk out the door. Don't worry and thanks. =)

Wondering,when I can really have a good night sleep,hopes everything handle it well .

Be tough!!

I love this! Taylor swift my Idol!

Fifteen
lyricsSongwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison;

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say"You know, I haven't seen you around before"'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

Don't give a Damn

Well well well, I have to say this.
Im drunk again ~ wohoo!
Oh yeah,I've just experience like what my good friend did last time,hug the toilet bowl and puke. haha!! I do ,I do! But only last night.. haha! Cause I bottoms up additional with empty stomach.. I know I shouldn't drink with empty stomach,but you know..I'm a human too..Lol.*you understand?
Yeah,i know...Sadness won't just go away if u get drunk,but at least for the period of time.Yes,u don't remember when u awake.
For my brother if you are reading this,
Sorry,i know you worried bout me,but your sister won't be that stupid who don't know where and when to drink. I'm just Emo-ing,If you know.
Drunk at friend's place,trouble them to take care of me... *shy
Sorry la~~~ I know i spoil you guys mood for just seeing me insane,ridiculous and drama over there... =( My fault and its my bad.Next time,I shouldn't drunk infront of people already...
I got to say, I don't regret man,cause I do enjoy my time with you guys! Thank you for listening to my nonsense over there,LOL!!
Hey yeah,I still have alcohol with me man,lets drink and get drunk again! Muahaha...
Okay,stop! *taking deep breath.
I know you guys been worrying me,don't worry. I'm tough!! I will find my way out ,and get rid of all this f***up mind. Give me some times okay!! Unless,too bad I'm not around one day. =p

Love you guys! muaks!

I will over come it.

I will....

Because I'm strong! ha ha ha!

I can't wait to watch the Princess and the KATAK on this coming Thursday. =)

Heard its Nice! 2D!!

I miss those days,but you can't look back always.

Look to the future.

No regrets,never ever ever ever!

Scope

Libra (September 23 - October 22)

Don't set your hopes on someone who isn't worthy of your affection.
If you
try too hard you will be taken for granted.
Look a deeper and you will see
that you are attracted to someone who doesn't have a lot to offer in return.

Read the ''TODAY'' paper that I've took this morning at my college.Usually I don't read scope and usually I will not remember it.Don'tknow why,today scope give me a big realise,making me I should remember this always.A friend of mine,always tell me. '' Michelle,you shouldn't be too nice to people, don't make somebody is everything because when they are leaving,you got nothing.''Wondering,Isn't this a rational thinking?I doesn't want to be like some other people who being selfish,just because I don't want to be like them,I don't want and I don't think this is the good way to protect yourself.Yes,I understand the world is cruel,but there is still people whoare not,isn't? But if I don't , I'm afraid I'm the one who get hurt.What should I do?

12 day

9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18....

another 12 day more to come, NURSING BOARD EXAM!!

Still,relaxing here,on lining and chat with friend .

Its seem so relax to me,but actually not at all!

I do scare a little , tense a little and I can feel the burden!

Can't wait for the day come but at the same time ,NO!!!!

I'm leaving my close classmate,we been through for 3 year,and now..who knows what will going to be happen in future?

Maybe I leave 1st? Or anyone of us.

I have no idea,just like people say , ''you don't know what will happen next minute,just enjoy your life! ''.

I totally agree! =D

Yes,i been through tough time. Its complicated.

What i should look,is not the past anymore but my future,suppose to say. =)

I will learn from my mistake and so on.

For so long,i feel so grateful,there is still people who care about me.Appreciate very much...

I'll love and cherish you all always.

muaks! XOXO.

Thank You!!

Thank you to Gywnne and Alvina who be there when I want to see them and talk!
Thanks to my mom who brought a purple T-shirt from singapore!
Thanks to my aunty who get me a cute key chain.
Thanks to my sweetie cousin , Lee Shin Lin who get me a DIY straps ,bird nest jelly and whitening mask! *muahah! I know i need to take care my skin already~ lol.
Thanks to my ''Kai po'' for giving me ang pao and my grandpa give me new year ang pao! =D
I will use the money, WISELY!!
Thank you,thank you and thank you!

Last

After the commit suicide, being crazy and ridiculous for that moment.
After awake from sleep,feeling so much better now.*my friend say every time wake up have different feeling wor...
Though,Yes maybe I'm too Naif , or maybe I'm too serious.
Things happen this way,no one wants it.I just can say,this world is like that lo!!
Because I learn from mistake . I become more tough , and I feel I'm different now.
I don't know how real I feel for this, but at least now . Yes,I do.
I've lost something,but i gain a lot too,at least , slightly more rational thinking?
A friend of mine,give me a sentence and its really make me feel better.
''There is always a hope for tomorrow.''
I will more appreciate what i have now.
Thank you for whoever who is not giving up on me,making me to think,i should now more prioritise myself. =)
Love you guys...

Weak

For the first time,I didn't take proper meal.
Not for the sick of diet, is because this few day was busy prepare for tomorrow night farewell dinner.
I skip my meal,though I'm tough,I'm strong, I shall have no problem .
Unfortunately,I almost faint in the toilet after I vomited out the gastric juice.
3 hour plus sleep + medication + no appetite + skip meal + vomit +dizzy = Hypoglycaemia.
I guess I just vomited out the antibiotic that I've swallow not long ago.
Not strength,house left only me and my dad.. No choice,have to ask him to get me Milo,cause I have no strength to walk at the moment..Its really bad feeling. =(
I miss the day,when there is someone who care about me when I'm sick,get me medicine and food...
I call gwynne and msg alvina...Hope they're here,but the place they stay is too far from my house...sigh.
Hah..Didn't know I'm that really weak.
Now,still haven't finish my work yet...
Please,give me strength!

Lastly,I fall into Sick.
Antibiotic to complete...
Cough medicine three time a day after food...
Lozenges Twice after food...
I reject Panadol... =(

Body giving warning sign

Weight reduce rapidly in 3 week...
Alopecia...
Pale face...
Hormone imbalance...
Have dizziness and blackout sometimes...
MC late terrible last month, Early terrible this month. =.=
Cough like a TB patient now...
What next?

Thank to someone,

bring me out when I'm sad ,

bring me for dinner when i have no appetite ,

cheer me up with message in the middle of the night .

Thanks,I really do appreciate you a lot a lot. =)

Need more time.

There is too much too much impact,that i couldn't even recall it.

and I don't want to recall.

The pain still there,I'm waiting for the pain to fade.

One day,The day will come.

I just need more time.

Thanks to my good friend,who always be there for me.

Love you guys.I really mean it. *shy

Recover Soon ,PLS.

I love chocolate,
It is there when I'm screaming alone,
It is there when I'm crying alone,
It is there when I was sitting on my chair and dreaming ,
It is there when I was doing my work,
Staring at me sometimes like he knows everything inside me,
I look at his eye and I know he loves me too.
I love him very much because no matter how late i come home,he will bark loudly like scolding but at the same time he feel very excited,just because he miss me a lot a lot.
The most important is,he will NEVER BETRAY me. I admire and love the LOYALTY inside him.
Fall a sick since 2 day ago,diarrhea and vomiting,his weight is only 3.8kg,not much gain since august.
I feed him antibiotic like feeding patients,
I feed him chicken Breast meat follow by the vet's order.
I feed him Pro biotic after 3 hour antibiotic ,
I feed him 100 plus just like we human usually drink when we got diarrhea an vomiting.
I hope you recover soon,
bark like usual you,
active like usual you,
greedy for food like usual you,
naughty and play full like usual you.

I love you, Chocolate.

I don't know what the hell going on to my life now.
Is this a test? To determine how far I could hold the pain?
I'm going through very very hard time now,very deep pain ,but why? giving me another pain?
One of my classmate since year 1 till now,3 more week to graduate and everything,died at the spot in car accident ,on the way to Kuantan.
Another pain stabbing to my heart,Once again,my tears flow .
I read the news paper this morning,with my heart pump very hard.
Yeah,I saw the news. The car smash like don't know what,i do not know how to describe.
She died due to neck fracture. Its very cruel,happen to my friend.Life is cruel.
What can I do now? I can't change the fact isn't?
Hope she rest in peace... Nor,I'll be your part to pass nursing board exam. Promise to you,and I will never break it. Trust me.

I would like to say ''Thank you'' to my pain.
Because of YOU , my weight reduce from 55 kg to 50.42kg now just in 3 week time.
Because of YOU , I always woke up in nightmares with heart beat very fast and I can feel the pain inside me.
Because of YOU , I can't sleep well now a days.
Because of YOU , I cried when I think about it.
Because of YOU , anything that happen before it reflex in my mind again and again.
Because of YOU , I be myself,doing thing that follow my heart.
Because of YOU , I become stronger,more tough.
and
Because of YOU , I will never do anything to betray my friend or whoever,never feel bad for what I've done and NEVER EVER be like YOU.
I'm living my life. And I'm doing the best that I can, and doing it in a way that I feel is right.
So I won't live in REGRET anymore.

Insomnia

Recently,I have this major problem that will affect my skin and the most important my mental and physically health.
What can I do to stop thinking about nonsense?
What can I do to get rid of this?
Can I be a little more selfish?
Prioritize myself than other?* Advice from one of my good friends.. =D
So I won't get hurt easily?
I'm trying my best now,I'm going trough this.*I need more time,but i don't know how long I need.
Maybe I shouldn't drink the ''milk tea'' just now. =.=
Contain even a little bit of caffeine can cause me INSOMNIA.
Can I blame on you? Caffeine?

22.Nov.09

Woke up bout 730am today,had a night mares that scare my off.

Try to recall the dream,but can't figure out what makes me sweat.

Can't remember anymore.

Do my house work... clean up ''chocolate''cage , bath him,sweep floor,mop floor,clean up my messy room...

Went out having lunch with stephen and gwynne,had at Appollo at Usj 4.. =)

Although its simple,but its multi choice that i can pick,the most important is,its really nice to talk to them.. share story and listen advise from stephen.

He told : ''Just remember ,life is cruel,life is unfair and life is rational. ''

Is this making me feel better? the answer is maybe... haha!!

Then 2nd round with kwok like and wen nie at papa rich,although I don't feel like going the place,but I'm fine with that... =/ Later sue yee and shao min join us.. hehe.. So happiee!!! quite some time never see them already.. Miss them a lot.. Miss drinking la...I wish i could be drunk! can't wait for sara's birthday too~ =D

Then came home bout 7pm.Went to dinner with parents at Pizza Hut near my house...

Hrm..tasted the Crunchy Cheesy Bites, result ...so so only la... *though what so nice. haha!!

Then come home and online lo!! Since i abandon my blog so long..hehe

Sorry if I got a lot of grammar mistake,cause I'm really not good in English.. hehe...

Be back again! =D

Wake up

Even you cry, you scream and you goes crazy.
Things won't change just for your tears.
No one will pity you.*Although u never ask for mercy
At least,you tell yourself,you did the best.
At least,you tried very hard.
Success or not,at least you know...
you have No regret,Never ever.
Every foot step you take,you are responsible to your self.
You choose your own way,you make the decision,you accept it.
So,don't look back if there is mistake or wrong,cause you will never can change what ever things already happened. We call it , ''PAST TENSE'' .
Wake up! Look around you,There is still so many thing are waiting you to complete it.
Give yourself a goal and task every time you finish .
Get yourself busy if you start to look back and sad.
Tell yourself,it is not worth it to continue like this.
Now,you are somebody just re-born . =D

Confession

Can i know what is the best way of dying?
Your life is control by your own,isn't?
I'm living like a Zombie and like a walking flesh without my heart and soul.
What life mean to me? Why I'm still here?
What is there a meaning to survive if I don't find a reason to survive?
I ask one of my friend,''will you come to my funeral if I'm not around?''
He answer : ''see whether I have time on that day.''*That was a unexpected answer.
Some how,I do laugh abit.For the so long crying deep inside my heart...
I'm not an attention seeker,I'm thinking of these doesn't mean I want people to care or how much people who care about me.Because I don't bother,and I don't care.
I'm tired to think.
Now I understand, How fragile human is.
And,I'm one of them.

Special for you : Liar!!

Take A Bow lyrics

Oh, how about a round of applause?
Yeah, standing ovation? Ooh, oh yeah
Yeah y-yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You?re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

Don?t tell me you?re sorry 'cause you?re not
And baby when I know you?re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talking? 'bout, ?Girl, I love you," "You?re the one"
This just looks like a rerun
Please, what else is on?

Don?t tell me you?re sorry 'cause you?re not
And baby when I know you?re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Oh, and the reward for best liar(Goes to you)
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out

How about a round of applause?
A standing ovation?

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
Now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

Outing and outing...

when out Wednesday with alvina and pui yan to sunway pyramid..

Wish gwynne,sara and yap was here with us unfortunate they can't make it.. =
When for dinner at Sushi Zanmai...
Food i give 7/10 , environment 8/10 , cleanliness 9/10 ...hehe..

1st time trying sushi zanmai...Not bad.. =D

There is a beautiful and ghost behind her!! omg..with her sleeping face some more...
Then we go for movie~ Jennifer's Body !!!

She's hot,hot,hot!!! omg~ i admire her look,her body,the way she talk...hehe..

Also love ''Needy'' by Amanda seyfried~ her loyalty to her cute bf...

But at the end,her bf die adi...

You will watch it by your own if you interested on this. Don't go for movie! go for dvd. =D

~Megan Fox & Amanda Seyfried~

Hrm..that's all la i wanna crap her.. hehe...

More to update when I'm energetic! =D

Tiring cause today was my 2nd day... ='(

The EnnnnnnnnnnnD~

The Cert!!

Finally I pass my 3 year final!!
Sooner or later, I'll be a staff nurse who working dealing with life and death at hospital.
I'm a little bit nervous also I'm excited to be one of the team~
I'm accepted by one of the private hospital *3 ppl chosen for interview,and 3 of us get it.
Should I be happy? Well,actually that hospital is not my first choice.Ya,my dream for all my 3 year is to work at overseas,like example,Australia? Singapore? Uk?
I'm trying hard,hope that i would have the chances to go Singapore one day , to earn their dollar,to gain my experience better and more... =D
Still,I haven't decide where should i go 1st, stay here? or fly to Singapore?
I will make the decision by Dec...
Now,I'm just waiting for the nursing board exam and then my cert!! Hopefully,everything goes well... hehe!!

Excitment

I became excited,
my hand come out with cold sweat,
my heart was palpitation,
If the clock can turn faster,and change,i would like to do that,
for the so long time,I never feel the nervous like last time i felt.
I'm so nervous...

Rain

Today don't get better, I though it will be easy for me.
Yesterday..Nope,This early morning *after 12 am.The sky started to rain.
I didn't on air corn cause I feel so cold,my palm are icy feel plus the cold sweat.
I know...
I'm not physically sick,suppose to say its mentally sick,I had depression.
Thing don't fix even i tried very hard,it is so cruel to me,that i have to accept the facts.
''THIS IS LIFE!!'' I told myself again and again.
When i expecting someone be there for me,I just couldn't find anyone I can rely on.Not I don't trust my friend,I just don't want to burden them. I tell myself,I can handle this,cause I want to be strong.
As the sky falls rain non-stop,it should be the best time for a good night sleep,I force myself to get into sleep and dream,so I could feel better when i woke up.I cried till I see the mirror my lips turn cracks ,very dry. My eye turn pink and swollen.The only thing extra on my face is the tears.
I had insomnia,I tell myself not to think about it anymore,I hold a novel that my good friend gave as a present,I read till page 103,then i stop , look at the small clock on my shelf , its already 630am. So,i decided to close the book and go to a sleep.
I woke up 2 hour later,insane isn't? I don't want this! But its happen!!
The only thing i realise,my pillow are still slightly wet,my face has the tears stain that already dry.I go down,look around,there is no one there,then i walk up again,I sit on my chair,dreaming for some time. Then,i feel like blogging,I don't share with people what happen to me,but at least I write something on it,There is 1% of release...
Everything is ended.
I should start a new life. * again ...again ...again...

Hard Day

My heart beat faster and faster that i couldn't imagine,like just injected an adrenaline.
its so difficult for me,gasping for air ,inhale stongly and exhale forcely.I need an oxygen mask.
I felt my heart are so in pain right now,like a knife stabbing on it.I need IM Pethidine.
My blood flow through my whole body,suppose to feel warm but I feel Cold,very cold.I need a warmer or someone who willing to share their warm with me.
I swallow a little bit but i feel burning through my esophagus.I need an ice cube.
My tears flow just like a river,I know why but I won't share.
I just feel that i couldn't breath properly ,
my mind full of nonsense right now.
I've been thinking a lot recently.
Having Insomnia,I need Morphine...
I tried my best to laugh as loud as i can when Im with my friend,So they won't notice.
Im just being annoying all the time that i couldn't stand and hold myself.
I don't know how to express my feeling.
Im feeling so down,down,down.
I don't want to be emotional,Hopes tomorrow will be better.

Old friend of Mine.. =)

See this picture? This taken when we are only 11 year old...
Can you guess,who is who?
What happen in this 10 year?!
Ta DAH~ *i know is lame..lol

She pointed to the area .....to......
Ans: Toilet!!
I capture this cause i think its unique at the same time,its cute!

I think,it is just nice the top for mei yan..I choose de!!it really look very sweet~ I wanted to get it for her,but unfortunate,Im broke this month...

See!! Am I right?! =D
Before the shopping started,mei yan pick me up at 12pm,then we heading to I.O.I~

Decide to have our brunch at ''Wong Kok ,hk restaurant.''...and shwu Jiun pick this~~

Mei Yan Pick this....

Then we went to shop at Daiso~ I just love this RM5 shop,because its cheap, plus from JAPAN!!

I can't forget the sweet time last 2 year,went to JAPAN with family...Its really fun!! Fun !! fun!!

I wish i can go another trip... Next Target~ either SABAH or Bali!! Must save money already~~

Er...I guess,im out of topic now,btw... Friendship forever!! I LOVE U GIRLS!! truely friend!! muakssss!!

I miss my long hair... =(

Few month back, I have a very long dark black curly hair till my waist . Its does look quite nice if i really taking care of it.My long hair fall terribly when I facing my management semester,the exam and stress.I cried almost every night that period of time.So,I did mention to my friend that i wanted to cut it off since I lost so much hair and to prevent it looks very obvious. One of my friend,telling I will not want to cut my hair short.I felt challenged.Oh..okay~ Then,I went to a salon and tell,: ''cut away as long you think there is something better than this.'' Then the UNCLE told me to forget bout my curl and he will get me a new hair style. Since he is a professional,so I've given my trust to him.. bout an hour later,i realise he cut shorter and shorter,step by step. I look at the mirror every cut he took. He told me not to worry and i will accept it few day later and I'll love it. Now,when i think back. Look at the mirror,I have my original waves hair like AUNTIE!! I feel regret,and i miss it so much.What i can do? Just wait it to grow back lo... Now I'm doing Shampoo-ing everyday+ apply Hair Tonic+Vitamin oil for apply+vitamin for hair grow. Although,my ''botak'' didn't grow back,but my hair grow fast.. I guess..hehe..

Pui yan & I

Before I cut my hair...*this picture took before we girl went to M.O.S(july)
Then i cut my hair on 18.07.09

Ta Dah!

3 month later...

Still my ''botak'' so obvious... ='(

This picture took by Vivienne without my notice at station one after my birthday party.. =D

I wish my hair will grow back faster.. I can't wait to re bond it again.. =p
Before that,make sure my ''botak'' grow back 1st.. =D

muaks~

''Yum Cha''

Its been some time,I don't really spend my time with my friend for yum cha,because lazy,busy and tired due to study and posting.. =( On 23rd,randomly chatting with alvina on msn..then suddenly feel like go yum cha,then ajak my girl friend lo~

Now only realise,its really very long didn't go yum cha already...
730pm,i go out from my house heading to Gwynne house 1st..reach there by 810pm due to traffic jam at the Hicom area..then pick up alvina and we go taipan,Old Town Kopitiam... =D

she feel so happy finally can eat!

~Alvina~

3 of us.. =D where is another one?!
Ans: Miri

Then,Gywnne say feel like eating tong sui,then we go 2nd time supper!!

who say she is not CUTE?! I'll remove their eye...

My favourite , ice+peanut+sweet corn+milk

Longan+Hoi dai ye

Then later, Fetch them back lo..and i go visit Alvina's pet.. =D

This is Sexy,where is Jojo?!
Ans: Sleeping + picture not clear

The Sweet one
~Princess~

The noisy one~ Prince

The End!! =D

More Than Words

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feelThat your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Miserable Day!!

I was posted to Hospital Kajang this 2 week , starting was still okay,I'm adapting and accepting the fact that i have to wake up at 530am every morning,get out from my house to my classmate hostel and reach there before 615am,wait for the stupid bus then reach hospital by 7am. Today,I woke up at 430am because chocolate vomited due to too much eating yesterday,then I have to clean up lo.. Sleep back , wake up again at 530pm,try to lie longer but it is so difficult still I have to wake up right?

Everyday I only get to finish my work after passing report to the staff nurses,that time will be around 230pm. (*morning shift: 7am-2pm.) Well,as u know,working in a government hospital is just like working in the hell.Take report,check DDA,check emergency trolley,do observation,serve diet,serve medication,do nursing care on patient,help patient around,assist doctor,running around the ward,(*not running,but walking fast),write report and more that I can't remember. I don't blame anyone because this is what i choose,my future will be going on like this and will becoming worst after i graduate.*luckily,I'm still a student. No kidding,sometime we don't even have time for our 5 minute break!! That's pretty fine,I take it as diet lo~ Today!!Don't ever mention today!! I don't know what the hell is going on,it is so miserable~

As a team leader,I divide the job to my classmate,and everything going on fluenc and well like a river beautifully*that is what in my mind now that i can describe. Then,pass report to the afternoon shift staff nurse and ended by 22opm,*early than usual 10 minute,this can make me fly happily... *you see,I'm happy go lucky. Then,the terrible thing happen! When we reach to the stupid Mini Bus which actually only can take 28 student,got to stuck in 36 student some more,*stupid bus management!!junior came and told us,get prepare to wait till 3pm because there is one of the junior got needle prick, some more after she injected medication on a HIV patient need to go for blood test and see doctor. *I'm pretty KESIAN her,trying to be understanding,okay.I went and buy some CUCUK PISANG,and wait patiently with my others friend and junior,*wait wait wait,is already 315pm.

Well then,I can't wait any longer,so i decided to ask from a junior for the INDIA mari punya clinical instructor for her hp number,and i call her. She say she is on the way. Good job! The sky started to be darken and rain!!! Oh my...my mouth feel like puking some F language,but i didn't. (*Lol). Then we waited till 345pm, they finally call back and ask the pass to make another big round so will reach in front of the hospital ,easier for them because its heavy raining... okay lo,the but make a big round and picked them up.Then finally,i thought,yes!! i can finally go home. WTH,suddenly on the way back about 3km from hospital,one of our junior complain of shortness of breath,*she has asthma ,never bring her MDI along,then she fainted. Arhh!! that is because of waiting under the hot sun,which the stupid bus have no air corn,only window,plus is raining out there,they close all the window,no ventilation,and she have not enough of oxygen supply ,therefore she got asthma attack. I was like,*please la!! Not i don't want to kesian you,but you know you got asthma,bring la your MEDICATION!! some more,you are a becoming nurses,like that also can ar?!! but i never shout out la,just sitting there trying to calm myself because there is so many others surrounding her,I can't do anything,yet I think if i went to her,not helping,isn't? there is 35 of others can help.. =p

Then,the bus have to turn back to the hospital and sent her to the emergency unit. 2 male student carry her like... I don't know how to describe,but I told them to do 3 man lift.*one of the method to carry patient. You all learn that on year 1 sem 2,don't tell me,you don't know how to apply on it lo!! (*wawawa... I'm not insulting them or what,not saying I'm good.Never mean anything to critics on people,just that you are a nurse,dealing with life now,this is what you do when there is emergency?). Then,wait again lo~ what some more?! I went down to the bus accompany with my friend to the toilet because my bladder is going to burst if i don't go pee... *Lol!! With heavy rain,of course my whole body wet. In my mind was like,I wish i could fall sick,so I don't need to come for tomorrow,but it just a thinking.. Sigh~sigh~sigh~Finally,everything is settle,the girl stay in the emergency ward and we go back. The time already 420pm. I reach to mentari around 50pm then home by 530pm...

That's only I can scream,''WHAT A MISERABLE Day!!'' .I hope the junior who got needle prick don't get HIV,I hope the junior who fainted get well soon and I hope I don't meet this kind of day anymore!! I woke up 530am reach home 530pm,12 hour....what the hell DAY!!

*oh god...please,please,please,give me a good night sleep tonight..

New moon is coming soon!!

New moon!!

I knew we were both in mortal danger.

Still,in that instant,I felt well.Whole.

I could feel my heart racing in my chest,

the blood pulsing hot and fast through my veins again.

My lungs filled deep with the sweet scent that came off his skin.

It was like there had never been any hole in my chest.

I was perfect-not healed,but as if there had never been a wound in the first place.

Thanks to Wendy Yap, Gwynne Kong,Kylie and Alex for present me such a wonderful book. It started when i watch the movie ''Twilight'' , and hear the stories from Sara and Wendy Yap and I started to felt in love to this.I really appreciate to them for helping me improve my English,though..still very embarrassing,my grammar mistake is terrible!! I can't wait for the NEW MOON on 20.11.09! But there is always the different book and movie. Still,I prefer the book. =) Once again,thank you!! I love you guys!! You all gave me a wonderful celebration on last saturday(17.10.09) !! Teehehee...

muaks!

A new beginning... =.=

I have no idea ,its been how many time I'm telling myself,I wanna start a new life.

This time,I'm taking a new start for myself,for everyone I love and care.

It's really appreciate with what i have now, friend and family who love and supporting me always.Nothing else I can ask for,because I know what I had already extra for me,and I'm happy and appreciate with what I had.

Why the sentence came out from u also ''somebody'' ? ''Well,this is life u know?''. I should shout back or say something? ''I KNOW! OKAY? ''. So should I deserve in the threat like this? I don't hope for something from u,but can u at least appreciate what I've done all this time? I'm getting fed up for ''u'' for keep scolding me bad words,telling me what to do,like everything that I've done are wrong,so wrong !!

I'm getting frustrated,with my care for ''u'' so much,because u are someone so special in my life,my best friend. I am not angry with what u've done,but I wanted to let u know,I'm conscious with what I'm doing at the same time,pls stop telling me what to do. Pls just let me be myself.I would like to use my own personality to live like what I am. May be,''u'' started a new life there,with ur new friend and everything , u seem getting far away from ours group,still we love and miss you very much.

Therefore,I would like to take my chance her,starting from now onwards,change my bad behaviour and learn to be ''good people''.. Yet,I think 21st is still young.. (*lol),there is so much more thing waiting for me to do... I'll priority important task first.. =) I hope my goal will reach before next year birthday.. hehe..

muaks!

Money! Duit ! $$$ !

I'm sure everyone is desperately wanting $$$ so much,just like I do,This month,so much money I've spent,I went Miri ,come back,ppl's birthday present,Chocolate's grooming and threats,phone bill.(*I'm calling maxis num so many time!) , buying clothes and dress , make up and comics..what else? I can't afford anymore!! Help me!! Well,actually I'm quite good in managing money,is just all that is my ''need'',''compulsory item'' ,''a must''.. Therefore i spend so much. Now I don't mind telling people, I'm poor, I left RM 25.69 only in my ATM card!! (* No Kidding). You know what people call it? ''POK KAI'' (fall on street) la!! For the above financial condition,I seriously think i need to work for part time!! Next month I'll do it.Hopefully I'm able to make it! I think i should control not to disturb my lovely friend especially Gwynne Kong , So I'm able to save a lot of money!! Money Money Money!! Insane la me!!*copy from web

Finally!!

Finally chocolate took some of his biscuit,I'm so worry.
Yeah! Alvina is bringing her uncle's puppy on this Saturday~ Black colour toy poodle name Cloy! hehe... Chocolate has another friends! =D
Can't wait for this coming Saturday,thought is not my actual Birth day , but still I'm excited to celebrate my last last party!! Thanks to my Daddy,who always support me but at the same time cutting my pocket money to rm100 a month,I'm contribute for the party too.. =( So calculate...Grhh! NEVER MIND! I'll take part time next month onwards! Thanks to my mummy too who mumbling a lot ,complaining I'm using too much money,I'm troublesome...bla bla bla.. (* flies flying... ) ,still helping me to get drink for the party..=D
Many of my friend is asking what i want for my birthday,actually ler.. I will love much with pressie which sincerely pick and choose by my beloved friend,I don't mind anything...EXCEPT toy!! Please...I'm 21st already,who wanna hug a toy and sleep? I already had my Chocolate..hehe..
Thanks for who ever coming...I can't wait to see you guys!!

muaks!

Arhhh!!!

I woke up early morning, couldn't sleep well now a days, guess there is some changes in my appetite too,I don't obsesses with food now,not trying to diet or something. It just be ''like that''. Maybe due to last week night shift, change my daily routine,so I became like these. I'm suppose to wake up by 10am..hehe.. still i couldn't sleep well,so i decided to switch on my computer,do some typing,like what im doing now. I know my grammar mistake are so terribly,but I'll learn.. (*Excuses). Last night chocolate vomited,guess is my this stupid owner fault,I shouldn't feed him chicken,but he really do like it. (*well,all dogs love food) Teehee... He can't finish his meal now a days,I'm really worry...This Friday or Saturday I'll bring him for grooming..Nail are long...Don't want him to scratch all my friend and family... LOL!! Yesterday Noon shift are DAMN BORING!! Feel like I'm the trash doing nothing,just tested Mothers urine all day long?! Grhh!! Wasting my time,learning nothing,kill me only la...At least Post-natal ward not so bad, interact with patient and do some ''NURSES'' work.(*Eish...) OK,going to play my face book again...(*Forever) Bye!!

With Muaks, xoxo

The Busy Body

Name : Chocolate
Reason Given Name : Its colour (all mummy's idea)
Sex :DOG
Age: 7 month

This is the picture of chocolate on his back view...
He is looking outside view when I'm driving,
So Busy Body....
I see from this picture, it seem he grew up a lot a lot...
Lets check out ,

This is 1st day when I bring him home... =D

-May-

-June-

-July-

-August-

The lion...

Street Dog...

after 5 hour .......

-September-

-October-

See...grow up alot ler..hehe.. =)

with muaks .. =o

Slumburrr...

I slumblur want to start a blog...
I slumblur want to spend my time...
I slumblur want to write something...
Im so slumblur.... =.=