Well Done!

I'll lick my wound,just like what you ask.

- Keren -This is not wound actually,Haha... Its a sign of being heroin protecting cousin from the Sardine Fish Crowed. But,I like my bruises. =) *proud. lol.

Have Fun! Real fun!

For the sake,so long I didn't smile or laugh from bottom of my heart.

I love my cousins. =)

I'll definately Come back again! Stay tune. Hehe...

Love

Leaving Singapore

I miss the place ,definitely.
Very very much.
Hanging out with cousins ,nephew and relatives ,really a happy moment.
Can't believe that 7 day just pass so fast.
I adapt to this place so fast and so well known.
Came to these place many many time already , but still it won't make me feel bored at all.
Spend bout 300 dollars. Shopping , eat and play.
At least,I went to the body world. See something real and build up my knowledge.Very much enjoy. =)
Of course , escape here, a little help ,at least I won't think of sad thing all the time.
I must get prepare for the greater coming challenge...
Chocolate!! I miss you,and I'll be back tomorrow! So you won't wait for me at the door anymore... So sad to hear you actually done such a sweet thing for me... *sob sob.

Christmas at Singapore!

My favourite cousin,Noelle Lee, Single and available. Interested? Call me. =)

Celebrate Christmas at Singapore Orchard road, Its been some time never been there for Christmas but somehow, its AWESOME!! =) If Alvina is here,she must be screaming like hell cause it is really SQUEEZING like a sardin fish. I never move,never even have chance to breath , people push me and so how i walk step by step and so how I like a man protecting my little cousin. haha! I feel like Man,at least for that 30 minute time , acting to be hero , Protecting and saving her from the crowded. Terrible crowded. Sigh.

I wish I could stay longer, So my aunt will feed me like a pig till I can't even breath properly. So that my cousin can accompany when I need a rest and walk. So that I can play with my nephew. Most important is, I love staying at Singapore. Really. =)

8 day for relaxing...

Oh yeah. I'm running away to find my peacefully day.
For so many things that happened ,
So much mentally issue involve,
I think I'm doing the right choice , get away these place for a holiday.
To get rid of what ever which distracted me.
I hate all these.
Depression is not that hard to get rid, It depends on what you think.
Walk out the door, and there is still rainbow on the sky. Then ,you'll smile for a new start.
There is so much that I can tell. Singapore is just like my 2nd home.
It give me hope , it give me relief and happiness for a moment.
Wish I could get a job in future , so I can enjoy the stress and the systematic life style .
oh Yap! Enjoy your holiday here too! Merry Christmas to everyone ! =)

Oh yeah, i've drink.
Sleep at 5 plus am and woke up at 7 am.
Cool huh? Less than 2 hour sleep. I really have no idea what is my brain functioning.
People is using the time wisely and study at home.
What I've done?
When out for the whole day, I know. Left a day more for exam!
What a big deal and so shit if I fail.
I waste my 3 year effort and another 1/2 year time?
Hell No!! No !! I'm not going to let this to happen. No!
So what I am still doing Now?
Better study a bit, at least you feel better..haha!!
Oh yeah... AVATAR is damn Nice wei!! I love the colours! =D
I had a wonderful Sunday... =)

If I could

If I could be drunk ,

Please let me be drunk ,

so I can crazy and ridiculous a little while.

At least the moment a while,I will not sad about what I'm depress to.

Everything is going to end soon,like I say.

Yeah,I can leave this place and start all over again.

I can do it!

Faster walk out the door!

Hell No!

Its already 315 am in the morning...

I'm so jealous to whoever who's sleeping now with saliva flows out or with the snoring sound...

Why am I still awake?

For the god sake , I'm preparing my Resume and I need to send it by later. WTH.

Later have to wake up by 7am to send my bro to work at the curve at the same time I have class!!

Oh god,last revision ever! I didn't even have time to touch my studies after I came back for group studies at classmate's house and now,look...what I'm doing?

Still have time to Blog. Haha!

I don't know who I can call in this timing,only can express at my small little Internet space.

I'm tired! So tired!!

Already alopecia, then insomnia , then no appetite , then tiring , the haven't finish yet. WTH!!!

I can't imagine how I'll look like in coming morning... Pale and ugly face!

What ever...who care now?

Gotta finish now,or else.. what time can I only sleep?

Mess up

Crazy break since wed, another 15 minute to 12 midnight, Recall my last night...

Sleep at 3something and woke up 7am ,not a good night sleep. Insomnia still and lost appetite...

Then give a call to my friend to discuss about some stupid issue who really break my brain and stab my heart, I'm confuse and I can't see what will be going to my future.

Long story and I'm not in the mood of story too. =(

Went to Sing K to relax and enjoy singing my favourite song ,majority mandarin. Haha! So pai seh to my other friends.There is Jay's song that I really love,especially those Emo a little one.

Then the man come and pick up for movie at pyramid. The Princess and the katak is Nice.. I love the humour and the songs too. The man told that I become smaller size,yeah I know shouldn't be that way.I will try hard to walk out the door. Don't worry and thanks. =)

Wondering,when I can really have a good night sleep,hopes everything handle it well .

Be tough!!

I love this! Taylor swift my Idol!

Fifteen
lyricsSongwriters: Swift, Taylor Alison;

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say"You know, I haven't seen you around before"'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried'
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

Don't give a Damn

Well well well, I have to say this.
Im drunk again ~ wohoo!
Oh yeah,I've just experience like what my good friend did last time,hug the toilet bowl and puke. haha!! I do ,I do! But only last night.. haha! Cause I bottoms up additional with empty stomach.. I know I shouldn't drink with empty stomach,but you know..I'm a human too..Lol.*you understand?
Yeah,i know...Sadness won't just go away if u get drunk,but at least for the period of time.Yes,u don't remember when u awake.
For my brother if you are reading this,
Sorry,i know you worried bout me,but your sister won't be that stupid who don't know where and when to drink. I'm just Emo-ing,If you know.
Drunk at friend's place,trouble them to take care of me... *shy
Sorry la~~~ I know i spoil you guys mood for just seeing me insane,ridiculous and drama over there... =( My fault and its my bad.Next time,I shouldn't drunk infront of people already...
I got to say, I don't regret man,cause I do enjoy my time with you guys! Thank you for listening to my nonsense over there,LOL!!
Hey yeah,I still have alcohol with me man,lets drink and get drunk again! Muahaha...
Okay,stop! *taking deep breath.
I know you guys been worrying me,don't worry. I'm tough!! I will find my way out ,and get rid of all this f***up mind. Give me some times okay!! Unless,too bad I'm not around one day. =p

Love you guys! muaks!

I will over come it.

I will....

Because I'm strong! ha ha ha!

I can't wait to watch the Princess and the KATAK on this coming Thursday. =)

Heard its Nice! 2D!!

I miss those days,but you can't look back always.

Look to the future.

No regrets,never ever ever ever!

Scope

Libra (September 23 - October 22)

Don't set your hopes on someone who isn't worthy of your affection.
If you
try too hard you will be taken for granted.
Look a deeper and you will see
that you are attracted to someone who doesn't have a lot to offer in return.

Read the ''TODAY'' paper that I've took this morning at my college.Usually I don't read scope and usually I will not remember it.Don'tknow why,today scope give me a big realise,making me I should remember this always.A friend of mine,always tell me. '' Michelle,you shouldn't be too nice to people, don't make somebody is everything because when they are leaving,you got nothing.''Wondering,Isn't this a rational thinking?I doesn't want to be like some other people who being selfish,just because I don't want to be like them,I don't want and I don't think this is the good way to protect yourself.Yes,I understand the world is cruel,but there is still people whoare not,isn't? But if I don't , I'm afraid I'm the one who get hurt.What should I do?

12 day

9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18....

another 12 day more to come, NURSING BOARD EXAM!!

Still,relaxing here,on lining and chat with friend .

Its seem so relax to me,but actually not at all!

I do scare a little , tense a little and I can feel the burden!

Can't wait for the day come but at the same time ,NO!!!!

I'm leaving my close classmate,we been through for 3 year,and now..who knows what will going to be happen in future?

Maybe I leave 1st? Or anyone of us.

I have no idea,just like people say , ''you don't know what will happen next minute,just enjoy your life! ''.

I totally agree! =D

Yes,i been through tough time. Its complicated.

What i should look,is not the past anymore but my future,suppose to say. =)

I will learn from my mistake and so on.

For so long,i feel so grateful,there is still people who care about me.Appreciate very much...

I'll love and cherish you all always.

muaks! XOXO.

Thank You!!

Thank you to Gywnne and Alvina who be there when I want to see them and talk!
Thanks to my mom who brought a purple T-shirt from singapore!
Thanks to my aunty who get me a cute key chain.
Thanks to my sweetie cousin , Lee Shin Lin who get me a DIY straps ,bird nest jelly and whitening mask! *muahah! I know i need to take care my skin already~ lol.
Thanks to my ''Kai po'' for giving me ang pao and my grandpa give me new year ang pao! =D
I will use the money, WISELY!!
Thank you,thank you and thank you!

Last

After the commit suicide, being crazy and ridiculous for that moment.
After awake from sleep,feeling so much better now.*my friend say every time wake up have different feeling wor...
Though,Yes maybe I'm too Naif , or maybe I'm too serious.
Things happen this way,no one wants it.I just can say,this world is like that lo!!
Because I learn from mistake . I become more tough , and I feel I'm different now.
I don't know how real I feel for this, but at least now . Yes,I do.
I've lost something,but i gain a lot too,at least , slightly more rational thinking?
A friend of mine,give me a sentence and its really make me feel better.
''There is always a hope for tomorrow.''
I will more appreciate what i have now.
Thank you for whoever who is not giving up on me,making me to think,i should now more prioritise myself. =)
Love you guys...

Weak

For the first time,I didn't take proper meal.
Not for the sick of diet, is because this few day was busy prepare for tomorrow night farewell dinner.
I skip my meal,though I'm tough,I'm strong, I shall have no problem .
Unfortunately,I almost faint in the toilet after I vomited out the gastric juice.
3 hour plus sleep + medication + no appetite + skip meal + vomit +dizzy = Hypoglycaemia.
I guess I just vomited out the antibiotic that I've swallow not long ago.
Not strength,house left only me and my dad.. No choice,have to ask him to get me Milo,cause I have no strength to walk at the moment..Its really bad feeling. =(
I miss the day,when there is someone who care about me when I'm sick,get me medicine and food...
I call gwynne and msg alvina...Hope they're here,but the place they stay is too far from my house...sigh.
Hah..Didn't know I'm that really weak.
Now,still haven't finish my work yet...
Please,give me strength!

Lastly,I fall into Sick.
Antibiotic to complete...
Cough medicine three time a day after food...
Lozenges Twice after food...
I reject Panadol... =(