Count down 27days

Last night I dreamed about you smiling to me,holding my hand,laughing as usual you.
I wish it is not a dream when I woke up from sleep , the disappointment fall ,and this is how I felt.
Deep pain inside me has not subside, and I wish you are doing great in your own way.
I woke from a restless sleep, shut my eyes as hard as I can as I raced to recall the last image of you in the dream I floated in with you.
A flitting image of me grabbing your cold delicate hand and putting it to my heart. My heart pounding harder than the last, knowing that the nature of the situation is only temporary. Not wanting you to fade into the reality when my eyes open, I stole a kiss from you.
My tears flowing down my cheek, tears evaporating before they can touch the clouds below us. You touched my face, told me everything will be fine. I fought back, knowing a promise is a dream is an empty one. Your fingers slipping away from mine as consciousness separated the both of us.I knew, it may not be the best for the both of us, but it was the best for you.I let you go against my will.
And I beg myself I'll not dream and tears for you anymore, as I can't bare the lost of you.

雨

不停落下来
花

怎么都不开

尽管我细心灌溉

你说不爱就不爱

我一个人

欣赏悲哀

爱

只剩下无奈

我

一直不愿再去猜

钢琴上黑键之间

永远都夹着空白

缺了一块

就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何

Say goodbye

你比我清楚还要我说明白

爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢

我用背叛自己

完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句

Say goodbye

当作最后一次对你的溺爱

冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管

只要你能愉快

Its weird when you want to say something to someone but the word don't come out from your lips.
you feel the pain inside you and you know yourself shouldn't feel this way.
you tell yourself to smile and you know deep inside you are crying.
can I disappear for awhile?

Its quite fully occupied now a day.

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  Food

 I miss my baked potatoes with corned beef from F&O . Craving for that , and auntie from Summit who every time I went and visit also get a lot of junk food from her place. Her sour and sweet plum is damn fresh compare other places.

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  Plan

Been doing a lot of survey about study oversea and also reading. I doubt can pass the IELTS test and I am not willing to pay RM550 to repeat the test if I fail. Better get myself fully prepare. : ) I like the idea going out to a new unfamiliar place with my colleague and also spend some time with my precious good friend. Life is just like that, as I think I still consider young, should play and work till the maximum!

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  Daily routine

Work like a mad cow still my weight maintain. =.= But I need a lot of $$ !

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  Time

I should spend more time for my baby who always waiting for me to come home.I'll shower him tomorrow. hehe!!  Hippo. get well soon =)

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  Goal

Be a better person! Do the best as I can!
Go holiday !!

One foot on the bus

Bout half past nine
I knew that you were leaving this time
I thought about laying down in its path
Thinking that you might get off for that

I remember that night we laid in bed
Naming all our kids that we hadn't had yet
One for your grandma and one for mine
Said we'd draw straws when it came time
I'll move on baby just like you

When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailing ship don't need her moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop loving you

I bet all I had on a thing called love
Guess in the end it wasn't enough
And it's hard to watch you leave right now
I'm gonna have to let you go somehow
Somehow

我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得

你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
我愛的
想要放　
放不掉

你的笑　
你的好　
腦海裡　
一直在繞我的手　
忘不了　

看不到我假裝過去不重要
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你

Poor forest mother broke her leg because bitten by Chocolate. ;'(

Hanging with my lady white phone, so ugly and yet adorable. Owh...

Favourite snack after all day long

Been snacking a lot now a day, and where is my diet plan?

My table , haha!! Messy messy....

News paper , bible story , cleo , comics , note book will never fail to be on my table.

This afternoon went out with Gwynne and Alvina.

Heading to the curve.

Makan Ikea food .

Watch sorcerer's apprentice.

My baby boy... So Emo there...

Alarm

Something I really afraid of, being sick . Sick is the most terrible experience that I do not like to experience and at this moment I feel so sick. Body giving an alarm sign. After forcing myself to swallow expectorant and plenty of water. Knocked out and sleep like a pig and I do not know what the hell is going on and trying not to sleep with air-condition , finally flu reduced and fever subsided. I appreciate my friend who give me the idea of not to sleep with air-con. The worst part after awake from sleep, my face look like got punch by people and all the ache over my body. * stretch ~
Today is my 2nd night off, though I don't feel any much different with my usual day off. Finally after a week of battling with my work, I got the chance to rest. I feel the sunny day when I look out from my window, something I need to do and I would really like to start with my reading plan. I've not read for many days due to the reason of work load and my body can't cope with the stress and more.. *Don't look at the mirror and you'll not see your eyes and face oedema like a piece of bun or something terrible. I should spend more time for my baby since every day time when I'm sleeping he tries to seduce me and lick me for no reason.  Owh... dear chocolate. Let me shower you later. hehe... =)