2 weeks later from that day

I felt
I'm a trash for you who allows you to pick up and throw as you wish
A piece of useless shit
A liar who cover my ass off
A psychotic person who needs to see doctor
A failure to handle emotional
A selfish person who want to eliminate you
A mean person who can say things so sharp that shoot straight to your heart
A person who mean my words.

Now ,
I'm gone and you're gone.
I'm living my life with a broken hearten since the day you told her that.
Why her?

Day 20

-June-

How am I gonna desribe this month is such a hectic for me. Other than travelling around the country , shifted twice of place to stay in Singapore and pocket is bleeding. So much have been done . Extremly exhausted. Not saying about relationship problem , have to think about my studies , work , house , financial , management. Hell , How do I manage it? 

A close friends of mine always say that Im trying too hard to do what beyond my limit , isn't too much ? As in , Im trying too hard.

I just want to do what I can while I think I can , erm. Its actually doesn't matter isn't? But what is the goal Im chasing after right now? This really strike to my mind when she is asking me . I remain silent. ( Haha , cause I don't know what to answer ) .At least , I do think I make a bit of improvement to tone down myself and do something that I love. =)

Somehow, I still does enjoy my life , not that extreme level that I dont care about my joyness at all. Got the opportunity travel to Santorini which these place can literally take my breathe away and no doubt it is a extremly beutiful place with beautiful view and just nice weather. Got myself a little bit of sunburm , but well. ( I don't care ) Haha!!

I am back to my home and going to spend like 7 days here. Trying to plan and figure out what I can do since my bangkok trip is cancelled. Okay , this is it . I am going to rebond my hair , do mani and pedicure to allow my nail to relax then a must for a facial too. Hrm ,what else? Maybe meet up some old friend and chit chat , do some room and house cleaning , bring my bf for vaccination , groom him and spend some lovely time too?  Dont forget my assignemt to due and also books and magazine to clear , really have no idea where is the recycle area , anybody any idea?

Till then , guess so much about it to write today . Have a great day ahead everyone!

XOXO

 View from my hotel in the morning 9 am

Meet some awesome people <3

Looking at the sunset thinking about you

Day 11

If only Im these hot!! ='S

Take care, get well soon.

Day 4

I don't want to be unoccupied and feeling lonely , cause if I do , I start thinking of you .

Day 3

It was heartbreaking when I think of you every single minute and second. I hope you would live a happier live without my present. I do not like the ending of both of us but I have no choice. How can you be so selfish and told me such thoughts? Its not I never stop loving you , its not I never be there for you , why do I deserve such treat ? The moment when I think of closing my eyes and let it go , I was so mad at myself .
The only thing that I do not do good is to love myself. I'm giving in to you too much that lead you to take me for granted. I couldn't blame you , only myself. Sometimes I wonder ,have you thought of me even a second? I never ask you for sympathy , just a little thoughts. Is it too much to ask ?
 I will now concentrate in my degree studies and workload . At least, I do not want to disappoint my parents and friends who love and care for me.

For a broken heart

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”


- Marilyn Monroe
 

Is a day that when you are brave enough