Finally

All of our memories so close to me

Just fade away

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

But we lost it

Understand life is not every happy ending

I don't expect anything anymore

Somehow , I need to move my step, without looking back, walk my way and start all over again

The chapter is close, flipping to the new page 730.

Count Down day 4

Have no idea why is it some words or thought is so difficult to spit out from my mouth.
Should I step out or should I stay at the current position.
I am in the dilemma.
It seem swallow and digest it is a problem to me.
What can I do to make everyone feel better ?
I need support and time to figure it out.

Don't judge people from their appearance , you will never be the brain worm who know what others thinking.
4 day left , what am I still waiting for?
...... *Silent

Count Down 9 Days

still me,

who cannot sleep due to an overdose of thoughts in my mind
who struggle in dreams and woke up in tears
I am mad, mad at myself for making us to what we have become

You are selfish, it is so much easier for you to plot and make the story come to an end
This feeling too affectionate, that not even a thousand words can describe
It is too painful for me to even want it to come across my mind
words screaming in my head
If i could have one wish, I wish you were here
I'm torn apart inside, I hate this feeling

I promise that sooner or later I will put a smile on my face

Count Down 16 days.

 A disappointing fall
Knowing all people make mistakes, can you accept yourself making the same mistake again?
Whenever people say past is a past , will you allow it to delete from your memories?
I see everything through my eyes, hear everything through my ears but I see no you, hear no you.
Everyday without fail I remind myself the same old thing, but the old thing came along to my dream.
Again , there is only way and only chance I can meet you in the dream and it is contradicting that what I say may not be what I mean.
I am tired of myself not doing good enough
Giving myself reason not to think
Can't breathe easy , hectically
It is just so much easier if I keep it to myself
Well , that's alright because I like the way its hurts

Where are you?

釋懷說了太多就成真不了  
情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得
我们說好的 幸福呢
你要離開　我知道很簡單　你說依賴　是我們的阻礙
就算放開　但能不能別沒收我的愛　當作我最後才明白

Count Down 19 days

I went to the room , on the light look around.
I saw a new painted colour and design wall by you.
Remember how long I've not step in to your room.
Images flash back into my mind and words you ask me to remember.
I'm here but you isn't there.
5 sec is like 5 min , I feel so long staring at it.
Your laughter allows me to think you are doing fine and happy at the moment.
Allow me to think you had forgotten about me.

It seem I have to drink and get sleep tonight.
I rest on the bed, hold my pillow as tight as possible.
I'm afraid.