I didn't want to admit, it was easier to lie , cover my face with a mask and hide the hurts and the emptiness ,pretend to smile instead of cry.
I never wanted a numb heart cause even if it feels so much pain ,I'm still hoping that one day I can feel a little bit of love from you.
I don't have to be happy in order to hurt someone else in order to build a wall for my own to defence and attack people I love , life just once and I live it on my way which I feels it is right to do so.
I cry for the memories you've left behind,
I swear to you on everything I am,
and I dedicate to you all that I have,
and I promise you that I will stand right by your side
Forever and always until the day I stand up right there.
If you are wounded , I am just right here to apply dressing for you ,
It takes time , but I believe it will form scar one day
and scars remind yourself things you've gone through
and you'll learn from the past.
I make myself busier than ever , trying to help around and hoping the time flies without realize.
I don't want to be alone , cause it will be the time I think of you.
I blame myself for not good enough , to be a perfect one.
I'm terrify.
