My Diet Bullshit Plan diaries

I better be control my diet , stay away from the snacks that I brought back from holiday.

owh,can I choose to tell this after I finish them all?

Or I'll  choose to be a damn fat ugly ME! Oh my.... Can't imagine it.

I don't want to go back to the past which I have the weight that doesn't look good in my clothes.

I wish I can fit into size S and put on sleeveless top. haha!! Another 3 kg to lose!

I've been not wearing sleeveless for my pass 20 year, so its time to change a new me for how I dress up like.

Aging, another scary nightmare that no one can avoid it.

What can I do about it? Apply anti-aging cream? Does it help or not? Do I believe in those chemical substances? The answer is NO!! I don't even like to apply anything on my face, what a shame... haha!

As a girl , doesn't care for the skin like a girl . Like people say , ''There is no ugly girl , only lazy girl. '' .

That is so right , and I am one one the lazy one = ugly one.

Alvina told my birthday is not far from her after her birthday , though is another 4 more months .... I must get personal studio photo done and more and more thing to settle before my birthday . So, I can tell myself. A tough year I have gone trough, a new challenge coming. Don't ever look back anymore! I am getting closer to my goal and I'll set a higher goal for myself to achieve it!  Yeesss!! That's the way man! =D
Alright, its enough to Ss ... Looking forward to see Gwynne and Alvina tomorrow morning...

Drooling seeing Ice-mocha...I miss you!!!

You're so happy and so ugly when

THIS PICTURE

BECOME

Are you feeling better if you can choose 

Not to see

Not to hear

Not to talk

Not to think

I am going to pack up now.

='(

Does it matter to you?

Whether I care or I don't?

Though I miss it so much . I never forget how its feel.

You can put the blame on me , I will take my mistake.

I will make the different .

If I am not a matter to you anymore,

I'll escape just like what you did.

I promise, sooner or later. 

=S

Come and Go

Life cycle is normal in our daily life.
People come and go.
You cry inside your heart , you tears and shout to the air.
You hope you are given choices to choose.
You know , there is no way to escape and you can only choose to accept it.
So, you know life is cruel.
They teach you to be stronger , tougher and more independent.
No matter how much you want to forget about the past, It will still never deleted from your memories.
Because it store in your heart , your mind and the fact is...
You never let go since the day you told.
Learn to let go , learn to be calm and be strong.
The most important you told me before ,
''You should love yourself even more''.
I know you know , and I believe you know how to move on.
Time flies , therefore be calm and patience .
The day will come. =)
Loves.

Every things that happened, has it own reasons behind.

I'm sorry that I've use to abandon you , and now I have you back.

Because you had make me tears.

Oh dear... my BEAR BEAR.

I have no idea what stuck in my mind but I just couldn't sleep well.
Light sleeper I assume.
Getting enough hour to sleep play a very important role in health.
I am a health conscious person but I can't help it.
Since last year started, I barely sleep though I feel super tired.
Even if I can sleep,its like 4 hour plus minus like that.
What is wrong with all this?
Overload thinking.
Putting myself tense up , worried too much , thinking too much .
Exhausted .
I'm fighting , fighting with my mentally and physically .
Hope for a better soul.